The possibility of what will be


“Consult not your fears but your hopes and your dreams. Think not about your frustrations, but about your unfulfilled potential. Concern yourself not with what you tried and failed in, but with what it is still possible for you to do.”
Pope John XXIII

This is a picture taken of my little kumquat tree, now in full bloom. It is just now putting out some fresh blooms—hopefully meaning I may have more than the single kumquat from last season. I have two fruit trees, I keep in large planters as they are not hardy in our region during our winters, forcing me to have to roll them in and out of safety throughout the winter months as they do not tolerate freezing temps very well. They relish being outside in the late spring through early fall but once the threat of a hard freeze in eminent, I struggle getting the planters up on small dollies, keeping them on the dollies all winter, allowing me to push and pull them to the garage as needed.

One plant is the kumquat, pictured, the other is a most sad looking Meyer lemon tree. Two years ago, when I bought them from a local nursery, they each produced a good bit of fruit. I was so proud of my lemons– and the kumquats went towards a secret family recipe for a cranberry kumquat relish (the recipe actually calls for calamondins but those are not found anywhere near me, so I’ve substituted the kumquats as they are found in the grocery stores)—the relish is made and served all through the holidays much to my husband’s joy.

Last year, sadly, was a different story and I’m certain it has to do with the whole pollenating thing of having just the single tree plus the stress and strain of rolling around all winter. The lemon tree produced no lemons–each tiny new lemon would simply whiter, dying and falling off the tree. Then a late spring freeze did a number on its new growth. I’ve had to cut it back so that it resembles more of a stick poking out of a pot then a beautiful tree. The kumquat tree produced just 3 kumquats, forcing me to head to the grocery by the time the holiday season rolled around in order to buy enough for the recipe.

I do baby them as best I know how, cheering and rooting them on to bloom–hopefully giving way to their beautiful fruits. Each tree currently is blooming and keeping the bees busy. The Meyer lemon tree actually has several small lemons, about 10, but whether they will grow and flourish is yet to be seen—but I am always hopeful.

These small trees have a mighty potential… just like us– as we all have a mighty potential. Unfortunately we often get caught up in our failings rather than our successes. We focus more on the negatives more so than we do on our positives. My husband wonders why I continue bothering with the trees–this when I’ve forgotten to roll them to safety around the 10:00 PM news, when I just hear of the impending freeze, forcing me outside, usually donned in only pajamas..frantically pushing the trees to safety. How many times they’ve tipped over from the dollies, pots cracking, me scooping up tree and dirt, wrapping in duct tape until I can properly repair my damage……

But continue I do because I know what is possible… not only from the trees, but from myself as well. Not that I expect to be a master fruit tree producer, but because I know I can care for two trees which can in turn offer us something wonderfully rewarding. It’s just a matter of seeing the possibilities and believing I can get it right…eventually.

That’s why I like today’s quote so much—there are always hopes and dreams…there is always unfulfilled potential. There is never a reason to quit and give up, not as long as there is still energy and a will….I never give up hope—that’s not to say I’ve never been depressed or felt defeated…but as is usually the case, I regroup my strengths and energies–always giving it another go, another chance, another fight….pushing forward till I get it right…

Here is to unleashing the possibilities within us all…………

8 comments on “The possibility of what will be

  1. Val says:

    You’re taking adequate care of nurturing and watering them where they can’t spread their own roots though, as container life is very rough on a tree. Maybe bring them some bee-attracting company like lavender — does placement help?

    • thanks for the input Val—I know about the container life as I’ve transplanted them already to a larger pot, but I can’t go much larger as I won’t be able to maneuver them—I would always see these wonderful container trees in Italy, especially in Rome, as they only had terrace gardens or rooftop gardens and their fruit trees thrived in pots not much larger than what I have—-but we will see……i’m sure it’s all about the perfect spot and perfect watering cycle which I’ve not hit upon yet 🙂 How’s the life at “home” going? Shoot me an e-mail update so I’ll know how best to pray……..

  2. nonfatlatte says:

    A beautiful, inspiring post!

  3. This is a great “sermon” for me to hear today Cookie! Now that my mom is doing better, I am looking around for something extra to do, something to add a little income into my life. Not quite sure what I want to do but “the possibility of what will be” is always exciting to me.
    I love this story and I give you lots of credit for loving and caring for those two little trees.
    Good luck with them this summer!….xo Joanne

    • Hi Joanne—glad your mom is doing better—and I understand about the extra income thoughts as I ponder the same…my retirement teacher pay is not my regular teaching pay by a long shot—and not that the original was anything great 🙂
      I thought you were wanting to write a book? That maybe your incentive pay in the long run—or labor of love–or both 🙂
      I’ll keep you posted on the trees…fingers crossed…
      Don’t be a stranger, I love hearing form you—I think things are getting to an interesting place with Dad—life has been quiet thankfully for some time—but I fear not much longer till we hit a bit of a bump in the road I fear…I’ll let you know….

      • I have started a book. A friend of mine told me there are writing grants which could help bridge between writing and publishing a book. I am going to look into those. Otherwise there is no income currently and the book I am writing may be six months to a year before it is even ready to show to an agent or publisher.
        Good luck with your Dad- do not fear but trust in yourself and God that you have the strength and faith to assist Dad in whatever way possible. Blessings, Joanne

  4. you can always get busy selling honey and honey based products 🙂 I’ll be the first buyer…
    thanks about Dad…I know it’ll all be okay–I just dread where things seem headed with him—he more and more just wants not to deal with life–like paying taxes, his finances, his bills, the house…but doesn’t want me involved in all of that as that was always his “thing”— my poor stepmother however is getting nervous and I’m going to have to be more active whether he likes it or not—we did a good bit with the bank at Christmas and things evened out—I got him paid up with his bills, etc—but he is more and more wanting to be like a kid…just watching his old black and white cartoons, and sitting in his chair all day long…oh well….
    Good luck writing–I’ve always wanted to write as well…hence this little blog of mine 😉
    Thank you for your support Joanne—cookie

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