Time for a little reflection

“Rest is not idleness, and to lie sometimes on the grass under trees on a summer’s day, listening to the murmur of the water, or watching the clouds float across the sky, is by no means a waste of time.”
― John Lubbock, The Use Of Life

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(luscious raspberry / Julie Cook / 2015)

When I was in college, I worked at a girls summer camp in Black Mt, North Carolina.
There are many posts yet to be written, with some already published, regarding those summers long ago.

The camp counselors were afforded one full day off and one half day off each week.
I would find myself conflicted each time my off day rolled around.
Maybe it’s the built in work ethic I’ve been graced with or maybe my ego was too loud and proud, but whatever the reason, I would always have to force myself to take the time off.

Years later when I was a teacher, I often found myself in a similar situation. Whereas schools don’t afford their teachers time off other than scheduled holidays, I would work even if I was deathly sick–loathing to have to take a sick day. Good teachers you know, never take sick days.
They work through the pain.
And that in turn may actually equate to good teachers actually being stupid. . .but that’s another conversation for another day. . .
But like my principal always said (I had 9 in 31 years so I don’t remember which one)
“a sick teacher is better on any given day than a well substitute.”

I’ve learned over the years that a little time off, a little time for rest, a little time for reflection, a little R & R is often just what the doctor ordered. . .

When I started this little blog 2 and a half years ago, my work ethic carried over from the classroom. I transitioned into retirement from teaching with the help of the blog. I’ve posted something everyday since the inception of this little blog of mine.
In my early days of zealous posting, it was upwards to 3 posts a day.
Luckily for all of us I have mellowed.
I’ve posted sick, tired and even during major events such as my son’s wedding.
As I’m constantly thinking, observing and composing a new post throughout each and every day it’s usually God who has the last word. My original intentions usually take 180 degree turn once His hand is involved. . .

Yet as of late, my life with Dad and Gloria is taking its toll.
I’m finding myself very weary of body, mind and heart.
Each of their respective healths are declining.
Dad has been horrendously sick for the past week.
The doctor keeps throwing out the notion of colon cancer.
Which it very well may be—but I like to think not.
I’ll be taking him next week, despite the initial decision we wouldn’t go, to the gastroenterologist.
He’s sick, looking pale, losing weight and can’t eat a thing but a little bland rice, toast, and applesauce. . .
Gloria has developed Parkinson’s and the dementia is taking a toll—yet she’s fighting it and us with every breath of gusto she retains—she is like a little whirling dervish.

I love the community I have developed here.
You are my dear friends and my life-line
Some of us text, chat and e-mail–sharing our own personal ups and downs.
I don’t know what I’d do without knowing I had your prayers and support–especially on those hard days of driving and doing.

I think I may take a day or two off.
Not stop writing—for Heavens sake no—this is my catharsis. . .
But I’m thinking I may rest over the weekend.
It’s Brenton and Abby’s first year anniversary this weekend and we told them
we’d do something special for them.

So I think I will just kind of “rest” over the weekend
Rest my thoughts, mind and body.
Seek some small diversion to help clear my head and heart.

But as I say that, I probably won’t listen to my own advice and will press on like the good teacher I am 😉
At any rate, we’ll be chatting soon. . .
my love and hugs friends. . . .

8 comments on “Time for a little reflection

  1. Wally Fry says:

    Rest is good. Let me know how it works Julie, and I might try it myself someday. Seriously, though, rest good and come back soon. Prayers and blessings to you.

  2. You deserve a rest. Your followers will still be here. Letting go a bit is a good thing. It can give us writers a new perspective and inspiration. xo

  3. Melissa says:

    Listen to the holy spirit my friend!

  4. Lynda says:

    Enjoy the weekend with Brenton and Abby and your husband! Place your dad and Gloria in the hands of our loving God and rest your spirit in the arms of Christ.

    Blessings and prayers. I’m going on retreat and will keep you in my heart and prayers this weekend!

  5. ptero9 says:

    Dear Julie,
    How I do understand the difficulty in keeping up with blogging. Right now, I am happy if I manage a post a month and make the rounds every few weeks.

    I hope your dad gets better and wish you and your family peace and blessings.
    Hugs,
    Debra

  6. Oh sweetie, I hope you do take some time off, even more than just two days. We’ll all be here when you get back. And I know you need it. Have fun with Brenton and Abby and just forget about all this for a few days. I’ll miss you, but I fully understand. I love your photo of the raspberry and you of course! Hugs, hugs, and more hugs, Love, N 🙂 ❤ ❤ ❤

  7. Jenna Dee says:

    I admire your work ethic Julie, you are an inspiration to us all. I strive to post more on my blog but often find I have nothing I consider of value to say. My Dad’s health is also going downhill and I find I am constantly called upon to take care of things for him. It’s hard and trying and I feel bad for feeling stressed about it. I love reading your posts. Your positivity is refreshing and I marvel at how you seem to manage everything in your stride. Love to you from Jenna ❤

    • Thank you Jenna–I greatly appreciate your kind words—taking care of aging parents is so so hard—it is taxing, trying and painful. There are moments of being mystified, surprised, as well as full of pride, while at the same time being full of sadness , being exasperated while quickly being humbled.
      I don’t like it, but I know Dad doesn’t much like it either. Yet there is incredible learning taking place- – –
      prayers to you and your dad!!!
      plus a big hug Jenna—Julie

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