I’m just asking for this one thing. . .

Praying, we usually ask too much. I know I do. Sometimes we even demand. I think I am learning to ask enough for the moment–not for the whole year, utterly veiled in mystery; not even for the week, the month ahead; but just for today.

Jesus said it all when He told us to pray: ‘Give us this day our daily bread.’

That bread is not only material, it is spiritual; in asking for it, we ask for a sufficiency of strength, courage, hope and light. Enough courage for the step ahead–not for the further miles. Enough strength for the immediate task or ordeal. Enough material gain to enable us to meet our daily obligations. Enough light to see the path–right before our feet.”
― Faith Baldwin

(tiger swallowtail feasting on the butterfly bush / Julie Cook / 2015)

Both of my grandmothers always had a good response when any of the grandkids began rambling off a list of wants—to what must have seemed like a never ending and ever growing list of wants.
And as the children, as in me, my brother and cousins grew, the “wants” exponentially became grander and more expensive–

The response from my mother’s mother was her dry “your wants never hurt you” with the response from my dad’s mother being her famous and very flippant singsongy “too bad, too bad”.

Now it’s not as if these two ladies were not doting grandmothers—they certainly were as they lavished their grandkids with a great deal–it’s just that some of those lavished items were indeed wanted and giddily accepted while some things were certainly not wanted nor had they even been a thought on the list.

New clothes and affording an education to a private school, if and when the need arose, was gracious and welcomed no doubt in the eyes of parents, but in the mind of a growing grandchild, the more pressing issues were for more fadish items or candy, ice-cream, the circus, concert tickets, bikes, horses, etc. . .these were the real items to the list of wants just waiting to be filled.

Both of these ladies were born at the onset of a new century–one in rural middle Georgia the other in rural Texas. They each lived through two world wars, a great depression and a myriad of other wars, police actions and the ebbing and flowing of the security of the world. They each knew difficulties and suffered loss while growing up. They each worked hard for what they had albeit in very different fashions.

To this day, I can hear my grandmother’s “too bad, too bad” ringing in my head every time I hear myself lamenting “I wish I had a [new] _________________________.
Filling in the blank with anything that is not necessarily essential to survival.

So it is on this once again hot and overtly humid day, which is just another day in a long and never ending string of hot and humid days, that I am heard to lament. . .
“I wish it was cooler.
I wish it was Fall.
I wish the weather would change.
I wish it wasn’t so hot.
I wish it wasn’t so humid. . .”
on and on ad infinitum

And somewhere in the back of my brain, I can now hear one of those two ladies amusingly replying, “be careful what you wish for missy, you might just get it. . .”



7 comments on “I’m just asking for this one thing. . .

  1. Melissa says:

    Wow Julie. When my grandmother passed, I was standing in my backyard. I felt a shallow wind, and I knew she was gone. A couple of seconds later my mother called. When I saw her number, I knew. So I stood motionless, answered the phone, “She’s gone” and in that moment a butterfly, just like the one in the photo flew by me, and stayed by me. I can’t remember how long because that moment felt like eternity. But butterflies were and have been my source of comfort when it comes to my grandmother for a long time. I believe it was God’s gift to me. I know the comment was a bit off topic, but I had to share it with you. Thank you for letting me see nanny today, up close πŸ™‚

    • No Melissa–a very appropriate comment as this is indeed a tribute of sorts to my Nany, and my Mimi–as I still miss them both so very much—
      Hugs to you and perhaps this swallowtail is saying its hellos to you here πŸ™‚

  2. Lynda says:

    Beautiful post and absolutely stunning photos! Thank you Julie.

  3. Hey if wishing for those things would get them, here I go!!! I’m soooooooo ready for fall or even signs that’s coming. We hit 102 again today and I’m doing my best to hang in there, but oh my it gets so hard towards the end of August. Love your post and you! πŸ™‚ ❀

  4. Nicodemas says:

    Thank you for the beauty, and encouragement of this post Julie.

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