Just not a good day

There is nothing either good or bad but thinking makes it so.
William Shakespeare

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(clouds before the storm / Julie Cook / 20160

It was a long day.
A bad day.
And all so very overwhelming….
The dishes still are sitting in the sink…
as I just can’t seem to attend to them.

Cancer is a bad word.
But of course we all already know that don’t we?

My little family has heard that word before.
30 years ago.

We heard it again yesterday.

Aggressive
Invasive.
Advanced stage.

sigh…

A CT scan Friday…just to see how far it’s spread…
Spread…
I always hated that.

He asked how he got this….
“No one knows” was the response.

Next it will be to the oncologist.

We had to buy a wheelchair yesterday because he couldn’t walk from the car to the doctor building…
even with his walker.
He stopped on the curb and told us he could go no further and went to sit down on the curb.
Sweat pouring down his face.
My son grabbed him before he went down for the count.
He could walk last week.
Don’t know what that’s all about.

Lots of change right now.
A little bit too much.
Both good…
both bad…
in this small family’s life

Looking for the balance….

One day, I’ll think about the dishes again…

And He was saying,
“Abba!
Father!
All things are possible for You;
remove this cup from Me;
yet not what I will,
but what You will

Mark 14:36

26 comments on “Just not a good day

  1. So very sorry to hear…prayers going up, God is with you!

  2. Reblogged this on Talmidimblogging and commented:
    Please pray

  3. Lynda says:

    Julie, such a tough time for all of you! Prayers continue. Please know that our Lord is holding you and your family in God’s heart and in the palm of God’s hands throughout this painful experience.

  4. Israel Ashworth says:

    Praying now.

  5. And how is the caregiver receiving care herself? Hopefully, you have someone close by that can minister the same kind of care you are giving to your dad. Praying for you and your family.

    • isn’t that the truth Donald—caring for the caregivers….whew!
      We do have 24 hr care now at the house so they have a caregiver who helps inside the house—my stepmother however is very difficult with all of that—her dementia often leaves her on the mean side of life—whereas dad is much more sweet—it is a roller coaster to be sure—thank you for your prayers

  6. ColorStorm says:

    One day I’ll think about the dishes again…………………

    But not now………..

    May you sense the nearness and dearness of He alone who careth for you……….in ways that we cannot.

  7. Oh no! I know what that word can do, so may God Almighty give you the strength and courage you need. Praying for you all.

  8. Wally Fry says:

    Very sorry to hear this Julie, and you are in my heart and prayers

  9. Oh Julie, I was worried that this might be what you’d hear today. If I were there I’d do those damn dishes for you. I know that doesn’t matter in the light of things, but it might restore some sense of something good out of all the madness. I’ll be praying for you and your little family. If there is anything I can do, please let me know. Love you, Natalie πŸ™‚ ❀

  10. Sheila says:

    So sorry for you all. Know that our prayers are with you too. Remember God carries us when we are weak. Love from Italy.

  11. lljostes says:

    Heavy words for heavy times. You and your family are in my prayers. I’m so glad that you know where your strength lies–in Him! One day at a time…. Hugs~Laura

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