This is the real reason…

“If you wish to strengthen your confidence in God still more,
often recall the loving way in which He has acted toward you,
and how mercifully He has tried to bring you out of your sinful life,
to break your attachment to the things of earth and draw you to His love.”

St. Alphonsus Liguori

(the first tiger swallowtail takes flight at the blueberry bushes / Julie Cook / 2018)

Somedays I get it better than other days.

There are those days I totally get it.

I understand it.
I can see it.
I can live it.
I can claim it.

And I readily share it…

For there is a conviction.
A confidence.
Plus I even have a bit of a swagger as I wear it smoothly and easily.
It is mine and I rest in it.

And I feel good about it.

But then there are the other days…

The days, which for unknown reasons, things are not nearly as clear.
I totally miss it.
I totally, and very obviously, don’t get it.
I don’t demonstrate it.
I don’t mirror it.
I don’t live it…
while doing it a great disservice.

And that disservice is very much acknowledged by my inner self…
As sometimes I can even feel a bit of ill intent.
A defiance.
Add a bit of delight and satisfaction to that defiance.
And the wickedness rises.

This is when I actually realize how very much I am off track.

I have wandered, for whatever disjointed reason, away.

And this is when I am pulled back to a cross and an empty tomb…

“God will forgive you if you ask him to.
Though your sins be numerous as the grains of sand on the shore,
God’s merciful forgiveness is far greater than your sins.
Do not be afraid.
Trust in his love.
Repent of your sins without delay and return to the house of the Father.
He is waiting for you.”

Patrick Madrid, p.15
An Excerpt From
A Year with the Bible

11 comments on “This is the real reason…

  1. says:

    I’m feeling like this today. Thanks for the encouragement ❤️

  2. This is such a powerful comparison of our our two options as believers… walking in full understanding of God’s truth… or in the fog of our own understanding. And yes, I usually rely on my own understanding (often my default, unfortunately) when I’m very tired. Sigh. Been there this week. So powerful a post, dear Julie! Thank you!! ❤ ❤

    • seems to be a trend with so many of us…I’m just so grateful we were offered Hope and Redemption…becasue there are days I certainly wouldn’t offer me any iota of hope nor forgiveness given my demenaor and behavior.
      Oh that we have a Savior who lives 🙂

  3. Wally Fry says:

    Thanks Julie. Been feeling a bit beat around lately. Good timing here.

    • Easter was not the day of unbridled joy as one would like—rather disjointed, tired, ill tempered..etc etc etc… an epic fail…but really a fail known mainly to myself…although my poor husband was privy to a less than stellar moment…
      I blamed being exhuasted…but I need to work through exhuastion because I know that charcater is defined when no one is looking…the problem is …I’m looking!

  4. And I get that about corporate America—I’m about tired of corporate America—brenton suffered because of such and is off to interview with another tomorrow— prayers would be appreciated!!!!

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