a lamb lead to slaughter or just another dumb sheep?

I have strayed like a lost sheep.
Seek your servant,
for I have not forgotten your commands.

Psalm 119:176

(Francisco de Zurbaran / Agnus Dei / 1639)

If you know me, you know I have always loved that whole sheep and shepherd thing.
In fact I’ve often waxed poetic about moving to Ireland, living somewhere near
Dingle, with about 5 sheep.

A plot of emerald green land that looks out over the Atlantic Ocean….
ahhhhh… (thanks Paul)

I suppose this affinity of mine actually goes back to having grown up in a traditional
Episcopalian church…more “high” church—more Anglican than what we know now.

Each Sunday morning, working our way through the morning’s daily office, we would recite the
Confession taken from the Book of Common Prayer.

ALMIGHTY and most merciful Father; We have erred, and strayed from thy ways like lost sheep.
We have followed too much the devices and desires of our own hearts.
We have offended against thy holy laws.
We have left undone those things which we ought to have done;
And we have done those things which we ought not to have done;
And there is no health in us. But thou, O Lord, have mercy upon us, miserable offenders.
Spare thou those, O God, who confess their faults.
Restore thou those who are penitent;
According to thy promises declared unto mankind In Christ Jesus our Lord.
And grant, O most merciful Father, for his sake;
That we may hereafter live a godly, righteous, and sober life,
To the glory of thy holy Name.

1928 Book of Common Prayer

I so often felt like that erring and straying sheep…especially as I aged.
I could err and stray with the best of um.

So I always keenly felt that whole “I am the Shepherd and the sheep know my name”
You know, that verse out of John??
I would yearn to hear that loving and forgiving voice of my Shepherd.

We sheep aren’t often the brightest and are easily lead astray.
And yet Jesus took on that role of sacrificial lamb.
Laying down His life for His own sheep…the Agnus Dei.

You know that wonderful piece found in Isaiah???–
We all, like sheep, have gone astray,
each of us has turned to our own way;
and the Lord has laid on him
the iniquity of us all.
He was oppressed and afflicted,
yet he did not open his mouth;
he was led like a lamb to the slaughter,
and as a sheep before its shearers is silent,
so he did not open his mouth.
By oppression and judgment he was taken away.
Yet who of his generation protested?
For he was cut off from the land of the living;
for the transgression of my people he was punished

Isaiah 53:6-8

So much symbology…so many beautiful and yet tragic images.
Albeit tragic melding into triumph…

But today, I felt perhaps a little ‘less than’ triumphant.
I simply felt that I was being a good dumb sheep.

I was joining the herd.

Maybe they should use the term ‘flock’…
Flock immunity vs herd immunity.

I don’t know if you’ve had your “vaccine”.
I don’t know if you want to get “the” vaccine.

I thought I didn’t want to get my vaccine.

There are so many schools of thoughts—so many bickering camps out there–
each touting a different mantra regarding the vaccine.

“It’s a biologic not an anti virulent”
“It will alter your DNA”
“You’re doing your part for your fellow man”
“It’s made from aborted fetus cells.”
“You’ll be dead in a year”
“You won’t be able to travel if you don’t get the shot”
“It’s the culling of the human race”
“Do your part”
“It’s the mark of the beast”

That last one gets me a bit because this new zip code of ours ends in 666—
of course there are two other numbers in front of that little triple line up…but
none the less, I hate even having to give out our zip code.
And that is in part as to why my husband feels that we’ve had such a time with this
new old house of ours.
Never buy something you didn’t build is his mantra…
But that’s another story for another day.

I have a dear friend who I grew up with who is a doctor.
She’s been practicing for over 30 years—she is well established and well respected.


Then I have another friend who is a doctor…one who has also been practicing for over 30 years
and is also well established and respected—plus these two both grew up with me and they went to
med school together.
He was like…”don’t forget to get signed up for your shot, my wife and I have already had our two.”

A quandary.

Throw in reading various takes on all of this and the confusion between the
do’s and the don’ts is exponential..
It is a matter of ‘name your game’ sort of thinking.

We had COVID back in November and thankfully lived to tell about it.
I figure we have some immunity going on but for how long is anyone’s guess.

I confess…. we felt vaccine shame….
and since my husband is 71, I got him signed up through the country’s health department.
I took him yesterday.

My new doctor signed me up despite my being 61 as she proclaimed that I am my husband’s caregiver.
Oh if she only knew…

Anywhooo, she signed me up in her office this past week.
And so I had to be at the University Cancer and Blood Center yesterday morning at 9AM sharp.

Driving over, I really felt like some dumb sacrificial sheep.
Was it the right thing to do??
Was I signing my own death sentence or was I simply doing my part for all mankind???

Who knows.

But what I do know is that the most caring professional group gave me, along with 799 other
sheep, a first dose yesterday morning.

Plus they gave me a goodie bag…

I’m a sucker for a goodie bag.

Plying me with chocolate is probably a good idea–thus I don’t think too much
about this whole ordeal of leading me to the slaughter business…

But like our friend Kathy said over on atimetoshare, “I guess if I’m going to die from it,
it doesn’t really matter, because that means I’ll go to heaven sooner,
but God is in charge of all that too.”

Amen Kathy!!!

God is still in charge!

And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good,
for those who are called according to his purpose.

Romans 8:28

36 comments on “a lamb lead to slaughter or just another dumb sheep?

  1. Frank Hubeny says:

    I am not getting the vaccine. I suspect staying healthy is the best prevention. This will keep your immune system strong. One way to test if you are healthy is if your body mass index (BMI) is normal. That can be fixed by diet. Best wishes to you and your husband.

  2. bcparkison says:

    Prayers for you. I do think the truth and the whole truth will come out soon.

  3. atimetoshare.me says:

    I didn’t even feel the needle pierce my skin, but I’m kinda slow on reaction time. I slept for most of the weekend following. I then developed some side effects as time went on – nausea, dizziness and changes in some normal stuff – but like I said it takes me a while to react. When a bruise shows up anywhere on my body, I’ve already forgotten what it was caused by. I don’t regret having it. I don’t feel like a sheep or like I’ve done something heroic. It’s the masks that have me up in arms. Every time I wear one, I start coughing and wheezing.

  4. lorriebowden says:

    You nailed all the thoughts that I suspect most people have about this. It’s like a scale that can tip really far…EITHER WAY! Hope you feel better…stay well 🙂

  5. hatrack4 says:

    We got our first shots this past Monday and all I got was a sticker and a pen that looks like a hypodermic syringe. I feel left out looking at all your loot. But as I was in line, I was still torn. I took the shot because my wife took hers. If we both die within the year, we will go together. And yes, I felt like a sheep.

  6. David says:

    Marilyn and I got ours eight days ago Julie. She felt very ‘off’ on the Sunday (next day). I was fine. We both had what is best described as ‘heavy arms’ for three days. All good now. There are no goody bags in the UK – just a sticker and a vaccination card to prove we’ve had it. UK is now vaccinating the next age group down (55-59) and we are told the entire adult population should have received their first shots by June. We have our second vaccinations booked for May.

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  8. oneta hayes says:

    I had planned to get the shot, but I’m beginning to doubt that I should. I believe my immunities are very good. Why take a chance on messing with them. Take a shot to see if I needed to or to see if I get sick? Baaaaaaaaaaa. I wonder if they will come around to making me take one to keep my SS retirement? Nah, Democrats wouldn’t do that, would they? Don’t breath a word to Nancy P. 😀

    • Well— I feel as if they would use it against me— you can’t go here, you can’t go there, you can’t do this and you can’t do that— I feel as if we’re all being blackmailed— and I was just starting to feel better from my cold and now I feel like death warmed over- I don’t put anything past Nancy and her minions 😡

  9. Salvageable says:

    I had a chance to get the vaccine at work last week. The governor of our state included library workers on his list of front-line personnel. I ended up not getting in line. No strong feelings for or against; I just didn’t bother. J.

  10. JMart says:

    Oh my goodness! Reading that confessional prayer swept me right back to my 12 year old self sitting in our little Episcopal church between my very British grandmother and her not-so-British daughter, my free wheelin’ mother.
    I must dig out my 1928 version of the Book of Common prayer. I am still faithful to the Anglican communion. Thanks for a lovely and much appreciated reminder. It resonated with me today.

  11. Tricia says:

    The pressure to get the vax really is enormous. This frightens me honestly a lot. I hope you feel better soon my friend.

    • Thanks Tricia— I think this morning I’m starting to feel somewhat alive— I’ve heard that even this new community we’re living in will now allow ‘outside ’guests’ to dine at the clubhouse just as long as they have a vaccine card— the food is nothing to write home about but it’s obviously started— no vaccine, no card, no admittance— and we still must wear masks and distance ourselves- I must be like rip van winkle— I fell asleep and woke up 200 years later into a very frightening future— I think I want to go back to sleep!!
      And given the blasted time change— going back to sleep will be welcomed!!!

      • Tricia says:

        It is a frightening future Julie! This business about a vaccine card or passportsand dividing society up between the clean and unclean. Hmmmm, where have we heard this before?

        Get some rest. 🙂

  12. Dawn Marie says:

    I too have an affection for the wooly flock & their care-takers, admittedly because our last name means sheep/shephard in German. And I too have had my first shot with the same angst as you!

  13. SLIMJIM says:

    We are like sheep to the slaughter

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