prayers for Natalie, a dear friend

“In prayer it is better to have a heart without words than words without a heart.”
John Bunyan

(flowers from the Luxemborg Gardens / Paris, France / Julie Cook / 2019)

For those of you who know Natalie Scarberry over on Sacredtouches—https://sacredtouches.com
–our prayers must abound.

Natalie has been suffering from a bone marrow disorder for several months that has
most recently morphed into leukemia.

Natalie was admitted to the hospital this past week for a 10-day treatment program.
A 50 50 treatment program.

Earlier this evening Natalie’s daughter Nikki let me know that Natalie is very weak and has suffered a
brain hemorrhage that has her now in ICU—of which is being treated.

May we all stop for a moment in order to offer up a unified prayer of both Thanksgiving and petition.

We are grateful for God’s grace which rests upon Natalie and her family yet we pray earnestly for
her well being–
we pray for peace to reign in her heart—we pray for strength to surge through her body
and we pray that her spirit will soar despite the oppression of an ICU unit.

We lift up James her husband, Nikki her daughter along with her grandchildren and sisters.

Hear our prayers O Lord….

fairness

Life is never fair,
and perhaps it is a good thing for most of us that it is not.

Oscar Wilde

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(coquina clam shell / Santa Rosa Beach, FL / 2016)

It seems that from the time we’re old enough to talk, we’re complaining about life not being fair.
And we’re right…it isn’t fair.
But that’s just life…

Over the past 10 days or so, I had posted, in addition to my regular daily posts, an imploring of the faithful to please join my family in prayers for our niece Chrissy.
Her husband rushed her to the ER over a week ago in distress….difficulty breathing, vomiting, disoriented. She was immediately put into ICU.
During the next 10 days her body just fell apart.
Nothing could get regulated before something else went awry.
Breathing, potassium, blood…
She just couldn’t hold on any longer and lost her battle at 6:30 Sunday evening.
She was 43.

We had just settled down for our father’s day supper when my brother-n-law called us.
Earlier in the day they told us that she seemed to be doing better. Odd how that is…one minute things seem better and leveling off, then just as quickly it all turns around in an instant.

I have been gratified by the prayerful support—it has been humbling and a wonderful life line for my sister-n-law who was amazed I had asked people to pray.

My father-n-law, Chrissy’s grandfather, passed away exactly two months ago. I worry about my sister-n-law as it is a tremendous amount of loss in such a short time.

Chrissy started reading my blog right after her grandfather died as I’d written a piece in tribute to him. She made me laugh, which she did often… she had to text me when she couldn’t figure out how to read the post because she didn’t know how a blog worked. I told her it wasn’t difficult.
She was always a hoot.

Time is a healing force and I know that that will eventually be the case here as well…it won’t make any of this any easier, but it will help as that is how time is…healing.

The details of “where do we go from here” was all painfully raw last evening as my sister-n-law and Bill, Chrissy’s now devastated husband had to figure out the details of things that, at 43, folks don’t much think about—things such as where will she be buried, what should she wear, what about work, what about Eli’s summer ball…
all the things you don’t think about or simply take for granted as life is simply life…

I do want to express a sea of endless gratitude for all the support, prayers and friendship that you have each offered up on behalf of my family.

God remains in our midsts—this much I know for certain.
There will be sorrow and tears—but there is a confidence and strength as well.

Onward and upward we go….

He heals the brokenhearted
and binds up their wounds.

Psalm 147:3

Day 8 in ICU, stymied

A quick update this Saturday evening…
Chrissy is on day 8 in ICU—-
Unfortunately there has been no more gains, no more progress.
Today her extremities are losing blood flow as the blood is routing to the internal organs.
They will administer a blood thinner hoping to get a flow to her hands and feet.
She remains heavily sedated and continues on the ventilator.
My sister-n-law’s rising hope has leveled off and is, I can tell, now retreating.
Tonight, this father’s day eve, her father will be spending the night at the hospital.
The irony of spending Father’s day with your grown daughter who is fighting for her life in an ICU unit is not lost on our thoughts….
I appreciate the continued prayers and will offer updates as time progresses.

Do not keep silent, O God;
Do not hold Your peace or be still, O God.

Psalm 83:1

updates on prayers

I wanted to share the most recent information regarding our niece… the one for whom I asked yesterday for your prayers.

Chrissy remains in ICU.
What prompted this current crisis in her body and of her system is yet unclear, but the crisis does remain….

However…..

Yesterday the family was given very little hope.
She had been placed on a ventilator Sunday but fought its presence.
She has developed pneumonia.
She was placed into a coma yesterday in order to allow the ventilator to do its job.
Her vital signs continued to fail as her kidneys began to shut down.
Yesterday was a heavy day as feelings and thoughts were not optimistic.

At the same time, prayers have continued.

Last evening my sister-n-law and husband spoke over the phone. My sister-n-law was barley hanging onto the rope in her life…yet a knot has been thankfully tied at the end.

Late last night I had a clam concerning Chrissy….this after a day of dread and doom.
Never one to trust these “mood” swings, I dismissed it as I continued to focus on healing.

This morning I still had the calm.

As I headed to Atlanta this morning to see my dad, my husband called telling me that Chrissy had actually had a “good” night….that they would use dialysis on her today to “jumpstart” the kidneys…

It was then that my sister-n-law text wanting me to share her deep gratitude for everyone I had asked to pray for Chrissy—she doesn’t know about my blog nor of my asking all of you.
She’s just knows I’ve asked friends to join in prayer.

I debated whether I should tell her about the “calm” I’d experienced as I didn’t want to throw out false hope or what in her desperation may sound trite and empty…but I went ahead and shared that I felt late last night as well as this morning that Chrissy was going to beat this.

She didn’t text back immediately and I feared I had overstepped my boundaries.
Then suddenly she responded…
She told me that when she was driving home last night late from the hospital that she too had a calm to wash over her. She felt that Chrissy was going to make it.

I then told her that we would continue to claim that.

My sister-n-law is a quiet private individual–she is also very emotional and I’ve known that seeing her child, no matter a grown woman, in such dire shape, has taken the mother in her to a place of utter despair.
For her to share with me that she had felt a calm was / is huge.

As of this afternoon, Chrissy is thankfully hanging in there.
The dialysis will begin shortly…

So once again, I ask that you continue with me on this journey of prayer.
Please know that I thank you and that my sister-n-law Gretchen thanks you as well—she just doesn’t know how many of you there are…..

a need for prayer

“The function of prayer is not to influence God,
but rather to change the nature of the one who prays.”

― Søren Kierkegaard

“Prayer is not asking. Prayer is putting oneself in the hands of God,
at His disposition, and listening to His voice in the depth of our hearts.”

― Mother Teresa

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(broken sand dollar/ Santa Rosa, Beach, FL / Julie Cook / 2016)

I’m a huge believer in prayer and the power found in this sacred and mystical transcending form of communication.

I’ve lived long enough to know that not all prayers are answered as we often hope or even expect.
But I know that there are indeed answers—
I know that there is a powerfully innate connection that takes place when we earnestly seek the presence of the Creator…

We are told …
“Again, truly I tell you that if two of you on earth agree about anything they ask for,
it will be done for them by my Father in heaven.
For where two or three gather in my name, there am I with them.”

Matthew 18:19-20

So I come before you this evening to ask for your payers…

Our niece, my husband’s younger sister’s middle child, was rushed to the ER yesterday morning and remains in ICU.
Her potassium levels are deathly bottoming out for reasons yet discovered.
She is not responding to the emergency treatments.

Her father, a physician, told us this morning that “they” were being cautiously optimistic but his face told us otherwise.

Her name is Chrissy…she’s a 44 year old wife and mom.

The obvious prayer is that Chrissy be made well…
but I know that there is more to just praying for a “miraculous healing”

I know that prayers must also be said over and for her husband Bill and 14 year old son Eli.
Prayers for her brother, sister and their respective families…
As well as for my sister-n-law and her husband…

Prayers are offered for the nursing staff and the doctors…those charged with solving the mysteries and saving lives.

I believe that many hearts and voices raised in unison create a powerful force.

I ask if you will please join me in this time of needed prayer….

Thank you….

Update on Martha: Soon to be making those big decisions–Which Glass ?!?

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We’ve waited all day for word. Surgery ran later than expected, but she’s finally out, in ICU and seems to be as ornery as ever—-probably more so than usual—here is to Martha, recovering rapidly and getting back to the big decisions of life— as in choosing which glass for which wine at De Florentijnen in Bruges, Belgium….

Thank you to all who have offered prayers and good wishes, for not only Martha, her surgery and recovery but for those who have offered me and my small family support and prayers…for those of you who have tiny families such as ours— you understand the importance of the greater community of “family”….prayers will continue these next few days of initial recovery and for rapid healing….Blessings and Peace